Sunday, August 28, 2011

I'll Sleep in the Next Life....in this one, I'm a Mom

I just read Emily’s blog from one of her ongoing series entitled, “ My Life Is Weird”, and as I’m reading about her most recent out-of-the-ordinary situations that the World Race has afforded her in Kenya, it occurred to me almost shockingly that these stories are the reason that I haven’t gotten a good night’s sleep in recent history! I’ve mentioned how well exercised my prayer life has become during this year….well, that’s putting it mildly of late. We only hear from her once a week at best, and the internet connection is weak, so we’ll have this hour-long very shallow facebook chat consisting of asking each other how we’re doing, what we’re doing, and how much we miss each other…with five minute long interruptions in the connection between questions. It’s so frustrating and by the time I get the basics covered and want to get on to more important material, she’s signing off to leave, because we’re 10 hours a part in time…
So, as I’m reading these accounts of her life long after the fact, I’m realizing that all the times I wake up in the middle of night thinking that something might be wrong or that I wish I could communicate to her…those were the very situations that she’s writing about….and I’m aware that she and the team needed the extra prayer at these times…that even though I couldn’t talk to her and didn’t know all the details, God did, and He’s taught me this year to pray when I wake up for whatever reason rather than worry or speculate. I wake up a lot and it used to scare me, but now I pray, and from what I’ve just read, it’s a good thing that I did and that I didn’t know all the details. Emily has been in a few risky situations that she’s handled very wisely, and God protected her. Some of her team members have been sick, and God has provided medicine and healing. It’s about trust and dependence…it’s really hard and actually “exhausting”!
I always say that true rest is “eternal rest”, not meant to occur in this life….at least not for Moms! We’ll get our rest in the next life, because our children and husbands need extra prayer for now, and God knows we’re light sleepers!

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